feel

Today my consciousness jerked awake without needing me to open my eyes. Under my eyelids, I felt the soft red of sunlight, but I took my time in lying down, rolled up in my duvet, under 2 layers of sleepwear.

And then I had a strange thought while I was in this quiet drift of a moment-- The reason why we consume so much movies, literature, music and art is not just to pass time, nor is it to escape into an alternate world. It's because we want to feel all these emotions. We seek to live another person's life, feel (instead of fill) in someone else's shoes for a while. Perhaps every once in a while, it would be nice to forget about our own existence.

Because feeling nothing would be terrible.